And now it’s the 25th of January and the level of fear and worry has risen for many people, and a sense of hope has appeared for many others.
The fear and worry is all about a sense of something entirely new going wrong and this can’t happen here. There’s nothing new, and yes, it can.
The sense of hope has to do with people thinking that finally things will go their way. It may, for a while, but then they won’t like it when it changes, and yes, it will.
I am affected and my feelings are arising in a number of ways, yet my question is always the same.
Since the world is the world and I like it when it comports to my expectations, and I don’t like it when it doesn’t, what can I actually do?
For me, this retreat I’m on gives me the opportunity to look at my reactions physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Quite a mixed bag. I’m grateful that this country and society has given and allowed me the time and freedom from want and worry, to sit quietly, and quite comfortably, and try and see what I can let go of. Let go of, in terms of fear, doubt, worry, remorse, regret, guilt and the consequent anxiety of the future.
My process seems to partake more of seeing where I can loosen my grip* on deeply imbued and settled habits of fear and tension. That loosening is letting go. When I loosen my grip those feelings have a chance to move and wriggle about and then, maybe, I can loosen the grip a little more and those feelings can go out for some air (Yes, torturing the metaphors; Oh, how they wish they could get out of my grip.), and maybe never return, and if they do they’ll not be as close to me as before.
My experience is that to the degree I can let loose on my grip on life the easier things seem to get, and then,the more readily ideas about what I can do to practically help the situation I’m fearful of, or anxious about. Then, I can act more clearly and from a place a little quieter than the fear based presumptions my habitual mind would present as Reality.
The donkeys need some hay and cats are cold and hungry
Each day a little more snow seems to creep onto the scene
Making it beautiful, and fresh, and cold, and I long for Spring
It’s a little too early to yearn too hard for that change, plus
I can’t bring it about anyway, but it will come on its own
Good time and bring relief and an inner,
I told you so. I just had to stay at peace and throw some hay.
*Grip loosening can consist of merely not believing that something has to be held so tightly.