Old processed cheese…

I was exploring a little of Alameda the last couple of days as I was preparing for my move from current location. Yesterday there were 1,000,000 people in Oakland for the Warrior’s Victory Parade and I was one of the few who were just running errands. Today I was there again but took some time look around a bit. Alameda is a  great place. Lots of nice neighborhoods, very orderly and quiet compared to a lot of urban settings, I’m finally starting to look forward to this move.

Tomorrow I will celebrate 32 years clean & sober. It’s been quite a ride. Last week Linda would have celebrated her 33rd year. We had about 29-30 years together. A good life with, and to a lesser degree, without. Life does go on, so far so good!

Not a mistake-free one either. The mistakes have diminished over the years, but I made a doozy of one not too long ago. So, I’m still not perfect; but I am better.

I do have to be very careful when I get into the mindset of “Yeah, I know I’m a bit of a load at times, but you should have seen me back in the old days. I was really a mess.” That type of thinking is the result of trying to rest on one’s perceived ‘Laurels’.

Next week is finishing of move and going to a Giants game on Saturday. The Vallejo Ferry, two blocks away, runs a boat to AT&T stadium on S.F. Bay and doesn’t leave on return trip until the game is over. Even if it goes into extra innings, they wait. Senior price? $8.00.

Thank you very much, aging process.

It will take twenty minutes to walk the two blocks to the Ferry Building. Thank you very much, aging process.

Where was I going with all this?… Thank you very much, aging…? Cheddar?… Oh, well…

I now have the time to realize,

I don’t have much time, and that

I’m the only one who can create

Space and Time in the flow of

 Thoughts and Feelings that want

To pack me up and carry me

Away. From Here, and Here, and

Here, and There, and Then, and When

Ever I really do not want to Be Anywhere.

So there. Take that! Accept It! Right

Now!

2 thoughts on “Old processed cheese…

  1. We can never how much time is “left”…all we have is “right” now…thanks for your eloquent reminder of that sweet reality! Enjoy the (Giants) game!

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  2. We can never know how much time is “left”…all we have is “right” now…thanks for your eloquent reminder of that sweet reality! Enjoy the (Giants) game!

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